I Always End up Doing the Same Thing

What is it about autumn that is so calming?

Anyway, the title has to do with the game. I'm referring to it as "the game" in a lack of a better word. This summer has thaught me so much, about me and living and growing up. I've started to see things in a different way (I'm referring to relationship stuff). This sounds propably a bit scattered, so I try to pull it all together:

I wanna be able to stand on my own, knowing my own value and not reflecting it from other people or their reactions. I don't mean to sound arrogant or self-centered, but valuing oneself is the only way to respect other people. Too many times I've seen and heard people (including myself) talking to and treating other people only one thing in mind: to gain a compliment or something else just to make oneself feel better. Totally selfish. And not something that is long-living. This is where a lot of relationships fall apart. When it starts to be a bit too heavy to carry the other person, confirming him/her that she or he really is valuable. That's something that should be inborn! I mean, in the beginning it doesn't feel heavy because affection makes everything light. But then, when the relationship matures, it is extremely important that both stand on their own, and that way can just purely love the other person. Love because he is so great, not because he makes you feel good about yourself. That might be the way to find joy.

Whoa. I actually managed to get this written. Have a good one.

Laurenzia.